I’ve been half joking lately about my “prayer list.”
Prayer is no joke.
I know this. But this is a
special list reserved for people in my life that are just plain
irritating. When I’m venting or telling some ridiculous story of their ridiculous antics, I say “I’m adding
him/her to my prayer list.” This is
intended to justify my venting and make it all better. My own little version of the better known Southwest
Missouri colloquialism intended to magically erase guilt for gossiping, “bless
her heart.”
But the reality is, and I say this in all
seriousness, they need Jesus (lower chin, purse lips, raise one eyebrow, insert
southern accent.) So I created a mental “prayer
list” for those I’ve given nick names, as though they are traveling the yellow
brick road in search of great wisdom when what they really need is to fill something
inside. There’s Dark Heart, Dark Heart
Jr., Pickled and Cranky Pants. In my
not-so-humble opinion (ouch, that’s ugly)
they have totally earned these titles. (point finger, point made. I am soooo smart and sooo wise and sooo right
about these people)
And so in between my trivial annoyances with these
dear people and stories about their meanness toward others and sour outlook on
life, bless their hearts, I do pray for them.
Because I realize that that they really do need it. And yesterday, I realized how much I need it
too.
I read this: “But to as many as did receive and welcome Him,
He gave authority (power, privilege, right) to become the children of God, that
is, to those who believe in (adhere to, trust in, rely on) His name—Who owe
their birth neither to bloods nor to the will of the flesh (that of physical impulse)
nor to the will of man (that of a natural father), but to God. (They
are born of God!) John 1:12-13
AMP
My “prayer list” got real serious real quick. I began to pray for them by name instead of
calling them by title. (It’s about to get Pentecostal up in here) How much
energy am I willing to give to glorify the enemy’s attempts to destroy their
lives when they are born of God and He knows their names? How much breath am I willing to waste
rehearsing the enemy’s work in their lives and spreading his un-newsworthy
news? How much do I really care about
people? How much do I really care about
people meeting God in a way that brings light, life and hope?
So as I prayed for them by name, I started welling
up with tears and got a lump in my throat…and
I. Was. Shocked.
I started crying. I felt this sadness for those that don’t have
a relationship with God, one that brings joy, hope, the experience of immense
grace and mercy. I felt sadness thinking
about how much God must miss those He created who meander through life ignoring
Him. (To be clear, I’m not making
assumptions about their faith – people on my “prayer list” have been very clear
to me about hating Christians, not believing in God, thinking that hope is a
silly notion etc. etc.)
As I prayed, I was humbled by evidence that God in
His grace is working in me and changing my heart, despite my arrogance. And so very thankful that I have the
privilege of Him knowing me and me knowing Him. I was surprised because I didn’t expect to
feel a genuine and deep love for them. To be honest I was praying out of obedience
because it’s the right thing to do, not because my heart was particularly moved
by these people. The truth is they
irritate me. But the love was in
there and as I opened my heart to the truth about their lives, it surfaced. I was stifling it with my ideas, my
own irritation, and those super clever nick names, which incidentally I am not allowed to
use anymore.
The simple truth is that God created each one. He knows their names. He knows intimately their being, and He loves
them there. And so I pray they will be
open to receiving that love and know true life.
Because prayer changes people…it’s changing me.
Because prayer changes people…it’s changing me.
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